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Growth.

Don’t like complacency..

Believe that your best days are yet to come.
We weren’t created to just sit back.

Don’t be satisfied with where you are. Break out of that chapter of your life that you keep reading over and over again.

God loves you enough. And he is strong enough to birth newness in you before the year is through.

God will use your confusion to give you clarity.

In order to get your life fixed, you need to know the fixer.

The first step in growing is to expose yourself.

Expose yourself. Let God minister through you.

Nuggets I’ve picked up along the way. From me, to you.

Peace and love,
Dee
xoxo

For the past few days I’ve been on some kind of happy high. I talked about my weekend yesterday and how much joy that brought me. So yea, just an overall good feeling with life and mankind in general. I greatly place emphasis on that mostly do to the overwhelming joy I get from being of service to those in need.
I was just saying how nothing could bring me down from this high I was feeling and then….. a situation occured. I’m not going to go into deep detail because I have truly given it enough power at this point. In a nutshell,  I was harassed and verbally battered by a stranger. When I tell you it was for no reason, that’s the truth. It was a public setting and some idiot decided I was his target. I was so thrown off and upset by this,  that my happy high came to a complete stop.
I couldn’t shake that feeling, it was a funk and a dark cloud, and then I listened to and watched the video below. Let me tell you,  the happy high is back!

“Happy”
It might seem crazy what I’m about to say
Sunshine she’s here, you can take a break
I’m a hot air balloon that could go to space
With the air, like I don’t care baby by the way

Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do

Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
well, give me all you got, and don’t hold back, yeah,
well, I should probably warn you I’ll be just fine, yeah,
no offense to you,
don’t waste your time
Here’s why

Hey, come on

happy
bring me down
can’t nothing bring me down
your love is too high
bring me down
can’t nothing bring me down
i said—–let me tell you now
bring me down
can’t nothing bring me down
your love is too high
bring me down
can’t nothing bring me down
i said

Hey, come on

happy
Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down… your love is too high…
Bring me down… can’t nothing…
Bring me down, I said –let me tell you now

come on

Writer: Pharrell L. Williams
Copyright: Songs Mp O.B.O. Pharrell Williams, More Water From Nazareth, Universal Pictures Music, Emi April Music Inc.
PHARRELL WILLIAMS lyrics are property and copyright of their owners.
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That song makes me feel all kinds of good inside. Pharrell is a genius.
That settles it, “Happy” is my new theme song. It’s been out for a few months but it’s fresh for me every time I hear it.
Yet another reason why I love words and music so much. The power to take a whole situation and turn it around is remarkable and phenomenal.
I am happy,  happy,  happy!!
Come on and get you some of this happy,  because happiness is the truth!

Peace and love,
Dee

If you are following the course of your gifts and doing it the way God tells you, don’t get distracted by other people’s opinions.

Everybody will not agree with what you are doing, but if God leads you to do it a certain way, honor that, no matter what.
I had one person basically tell me that my story (You Don’t Know My Shame) didn’t offer any hope. Well that’s her opinion, and she’s entitled to it. It wasn’t that she didn’t agree, it was the way it was said. Like planting a spirit of doubt.  Not gonna happen.

Offering hope was not my main objective with this story. However,  raising awareness and breaking the silence on childhood abuse was. It was an uncomfortable story and it was meant to make the reader feel a certain level of discomfort. I don’t write about moonbeams, lillies, or daffodils.  If that’s what you want, read another Author.
I write about the truth, raw, uncut, and that truth isn’t always so comfortable. For me, that’s the only way real change will happen. Actually tried to tell me how to write MY story. I said,  “well you know what you want,  you should write it, but as long as in writing. I’m gonna do it my way.”

It’s always one!
I’ve had too many people embrace this story and cry to me telling me how it made them think, made them want to make a difference,  and that was the point! Bottom line, someone who doesn’t get the process doesn’t stop me.

Peace and love
Dee

Sunday Morning always reminds me of gospel music blasting from the radio and good smells coming from the kitchen. These are the traditions I would like to have for my kids. In the mad rush to even make it out of the door and sitting in a decent area of the church congregation on time, my childhood traditions get lost in the shuffle. It’s more of grab a bowl of cereal, or pop a toaster strudel in the oven thing going on over here. Time management is my worst ememy. I envy those who say they never even use an alarm clock. Teh! If I didn’t have my alarm, I’d still be sleep right now. Factor in kids arguing, fighting for the bathroom(nevermind that we have two bathrooms they still fight), and Mommy where is my pink headband, my wallet, my pink shoes, they are messing with me, get out of my room, my stomach hurts….. will these traditions ever happen? Realistically, I’m more of a here and now type,  rather then from now on. I have commitment issues, I know. But that’s a different post for another day. As for today,  I am going to blast my music, put some biscuits in the oven, make pancakes, eggs, sausage, bacon, orange juice, and still make it out of the house on time. Boom!
Just like the song says, “Easy Like Sunday Morning.”

Peace and blessings,
Dee

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Hello Dears,
This is going to be a condensed post. My week has been hectic, let me tell you, my job tires me to no end and challenges me immensely and… I love it! I’m just that kind of girl, I love a challenge.

Speaking of challenges, lack of sleep, whoa, what a challenge. I was so tired the other day (thursday). All I thought about was going home and getting in my bed. I literally had visions of it. Then, the calendar on my iPhone alerted me that I had an event that day. I had tickets to take the kids to the UniverSoul Circus. Oh no, say it ain’t so. Of all days. Today? Really? I completely forgot. I purchased those tickets well over a month ago and it slipped my mind. To top that off, Thursday was my late day at work. I wasn’t getting off until 6. The circus started at 7:30. How could I make this go over well at this point. After work I began a mad dash from one part of town to the next. The twenty- year old picked up the five year old from school. I called home and told the older kids to go in the closet and get an outfit for J, black shorts, black shirt, black sandles. I rushed in the house a sweaty and tired hot mess. J was bathed and dressed. Wonderful! I jump in the shower, with not a clue of what to wear. I ran to the closet and just picked out something that looked comfortable. I really didn’t put any thought into my clothes. Who had time to think. Clothes on, and we’re off.

Lil miss number #5 J wore:
Black tee- Walmart
Black shorts-Walmart
Cardigan-Target
Sandles- the shoe dept
Purse and jewelry- Burlington’s

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I wore:
Brown Jumper- Wet Seal
Cardigan- Old Navy
Sandles- Target
Bangles-thrifted
Earrings, Necklace- JCPenny
Watch- Michael Kors

(I just threw on anything)

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We were speeding down the highway, and made it at 7:30 on the dot. First off, if you’ve ever been to the Universoul circus then you’ll know that when I say it was like a big huge party, I’m not joking. This was my first time going and I was not prepared for all the partying, music, dancing, audience participation, line dancing, soul train line, constant interaction. On a Thursday night, after work, dead tired, I was ill prepared. Overall, it was nice. I think the kids were in a state of shock at first. Then they started enjoying it. J was dancing it up, because that’s her thing but after a few hours it was just wearing on us all. At 10:15 pm, the circus was still running strong. I grabbed my kids and said we out! Nobody hesitated because they were all just as tired as I was. It was fun, but heart pumping, screaming excited kids, loud music, foot stomping was just too much for this Mommy on a Thursday night.

20120526-112341.jpg my Son jumped up there and started doing the stanky-leg.. Haha!

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Me and my clan

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After the circus, as a unit we came home, and straight crashed! Lol..
Friday morning, I had to get up for work (still tired) and even managed to somehow look cute! 🙂
I wore:
Silk top- Old Navy
Silk Pants- Forever21
Lace Cardigan- ?
Nude Pumps- Marshall’s
Purse- TJMax
Necklace- JCPenny
Watch-Michael Kors
Bracelets- thrifted

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Off work, and ready for the long weekend. Yes! No work til Tuesday. After work, I hooked up with a friend I hadn’t seen in a while. We ended up going out for crabs and just chilling at my house eating crabs and talking trash. It was a fun evening. And now today!!!
I gotta set this one up.
Thirteen years ago my head was so cloudy, my spirit was low and my faith was shattered, because my Mom had just died. Then on May 26, 1999, God blessed me with a wonderful gift that would stretch me in new ways, resurrect my faith, and lift me higher. DJ came into my life and reminded me that I had so much to live for..
He irritates me often, even challenges my intelligence at times, but the one constant is that he is unconditionally my son. My only son DJ is thirteen years old today, and I’m still his mom. What a blessing!
Happy Birthday to my son. Isn’t he so handsome:

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20120526-123618.jpg he was wearing his little suit on Easter!

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DJ wears- Suit from grandparents
Button down- the Children’s Place
Cardigan- American eagle kids
Jeans- Abercrombie & Fitch kids
Shoes- Vans
Geek glasses-?

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Well folks, that’s it. Sorry for the looonngg post, and the heaavvvyyyy pictures, I was trying to get it in. I’ve got a long day of cookouts, and birthday hoorays, so let me get to it.
I pray everyone has a wonderful memorial day weekend with family, friends, and definitely be safe.

Peace and Blessings,
Dee

I REALLY SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF MYSELF… it’s been almost two month since my last blog post. How did this happen??? Oh no… My readers, my fam, my fellow bloggers, are you all still here? I can’t blame anyone if they’ve unsubscribed and completely jumped ship. I know it seems as if my blog is abandoned but, it’s not.. I’m back! I am. Well not with a full on blog post but just to apologize and let you know, I will be posting soon. I have so much to tell you guys about. You all know, I started a new job back in February. And I was taking a class at church and studying and the kids, just oh my goodness, I need to find a balance. I spoke with a sister friend of mine this morning about that very thing. This new job is a doozy. Busier than I’ve ever been I think. Very meticulous, very detailed oriented and absolutely no room for error. I love it that it challenges me. That’s one of the main reasons I haven’t been blogging because I am so busy with work, school, kids, home life. I NEED BALANCE. But I have so much to catch you all up on, and I will, just not tonight. Got a very early morning meeting and well you know, I need that paycheck, so I have to get some sleep. Just know, I love you all.. I still have so much to give. Please don’t give up on me, and by this weekend, no later than, you will be caught up on the happenings of Dee. Ok..

Peace and blessings
Dee